Owen Ronald Kett

Owen Ronald Kett
11/07/2008
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Giving birth naturally slipped away from us all.
You leave behind your Big brothers Bradley(4) and Joshua (2)
Miscarriage 21 weeks


To my sweet Owen,

Mummy went to medway hospital on the 11th July 2007 I had realy bad contractions, I got there at
6:28pm, they checked me and said it was proberly just a urine infection I only had a week to the
next scan,I was so excited couldnt wait to see you again, and as soon as the pain started some how I
knew that I wouldn't get to that scan but the midwife said I was fine.
I waited and waited for a doctor all I could do was cry with a baby monitor machine hooked to
me,worried the pain was getting worse she said your heartbeat was fine, then the pain just stopped
and my heart felt weak, I was fine for a while trying to calm myself thinking the midwifes would
know if I was in labour or not and then I felt so lost and gone inside and somehow I knew you wasn't
ok any more.

And then 2 minutes later at 8:58pm I got up and went to the toilet and as I sat on the toilet you
just fell from me the worst feeling ever that I still cant get out of my head, like someone had
ripped my insides out.

Most things are a mist after that I knew somehow It must of been something I had done wrong. But I
got told time and time again it wasnt.

The doctor finally came to see me a few minutes later, she was far to late though, as the one thing
I did want was gone.


Your Nanny and Grandad Kett came to the hospital to comfort your daddy and mummy.
I got asked by the midwife if I wanted to see you but I got told you wasnt properly formed, so I
decided against it as I want to think that you would of looked like your two brothers Bradley and
Joshua as they are so much a like.
I didnt want to remember you all deformed I want to remember the real you.And how you would of been
a few weeks down the line if you could of held on just a little longer,

All the pictures I have of you is a scan dated in April 2007 and you look like a baby to me there so
thats how I want to remember you.

I know I never got the chance to tell you how much I love you but I do, we all do so much it still
hurts daily as much as it did the day you slipped away.

I named you my little star in the sky, because I didn't get much sleep after you left us and then
one night I laid on the sofa starring at the night sky through the window and I noticed a star in
the sky that kept twinkling at me, and from that day on I know deep inside it was you and you are
there every night I need you. xx

And when the skies are filled with stars I know which one you are, you are that one who stands out
that fills the sky with so much brightness, you are the night light that everyone smiles out as they
look up to see, and you are the one that gives that comforting feeling, that everyone gets from
something so precious.

You are so pretty and unique the brightest of them all and no one could ever take that away from
you,

Its so hard to say how I feel about you, I could never put into words the feeling inside of me,

Your brothers never got to meet you but they will never forget you, and you will always be in all of
our hearts forever and always.

My world is incomplete without you but I know I cant do nothing to bring you back so knowing that
you have been put with all the other angels in heaven untill mummy reaches you helps me try and
cope each day I wake and still miss you all the same but more.

You are my treasure, my pot of happiness.

Sleep tight my sweet baby Owen.

Mummy loves you and will, I am always holding you tightly in her arms.
xxxxxxx
My shinning star.





xxxx
Twinkle, Twinkle little star,
how I wonder what you are,
up above the world so high,
like a diamond in the sky.
Twinkle, Twinkle little star,
how I wonder Where you are.
xxxx